7.
But this modern Global
era is not a civilization at all, because we do not live together yet in
We-awareness at home and in the street, and we do not yet stand in
grateful awe of the Mystery of the One and the Many.
The healthy self is attempting at every turn to break through the
spiritual seeker non-entity and heal itself, because that is all we are
talking about, really. It’s like having a bad case of psycho-spiritual
influenza, and then, through spiritual effort, “self-induced,
self-devised effort”, you get better. But we have to realize that there
is no saving the separate self non-entity. The spiritual seeker
non-entity must come to an end in order for the healing to begin. It’s
not included, and for as long as we are caught in believing that
spiritual life is about the spiritual seeker non-entity becoming
immortal, we are lost.
Spiritual health, which means to be hale, to be whole and Holy, means
that we are at-one with what truly, energetically lives. A very
important part of the perceived problem of spiritual awareness is the
problem of energy. If there is enough whole energy unified within you,
it spontaneously breaks through the sub-human sub-awareness and
distraction of the separate self non-entity.
Awareness and primal, spiritual energy (Fohat) are joined in the most
intimate and extensive way. The scope and depth of this awareness energy
cannot be described from the “outside”. Awareness energy, Silent
Individual Self in We-awareness energy, can only be really understood in
the Deep Awakening.
It can be said that Awareness-energy is inexhaustibly alive and all
awareness within it increases it constantly, as does primal spiritual
energy heighten awareness. This Awareness-energy radiates everywhere
from the silent, infinite depths of the One (triple logos). Man’s being
(Atma-Buddhi-Manas) is naturally grounded in this silent infinite depth.
This is true of every stage and generation of Man’s entire history and
is also true of every day and night of Individual existence. This
Awareness-energy is Life, and without it there would be no manifestation
of any kind. “Everything in the Universe, throughout all its kingdoms,
is conscious; i.e. endowed with a consciousness of its own kind and on
its own plane…”[3]. What we are looking into is the awareness and
consciousness proper to the spiritual being, the Kumara, who is Man.
Primal spiritual Awareness-energy, amazingly, is us. It arises from the
ground and essence of who we are. Yet in the deep awakening it is not
amazement and awe that is most present, but the Self-realization of what
is most original and true: the One Reality which is the true Home of all
Beings. And so, when we deep-awaken, we come Home to the Mystery of the
One and the Many.
Man can lose this original awareness in only one way (isn’t that
fortunate?). Although it appears that this loss of self-presence in
We-awareness within the One can/does come upon man through the vast
array of distractions and anxieties to be found in the everyday world of
separate self non-entities, the loss of Silent Individual presence comes
about in only one way. No matter how often we realize the crucial need
to be aware-awake, this need is unable to preserve awake-awareness. What
must take place within us so that we live in the state of resolute
presence, opened to all that is?
When consciousness is a problem through being a case of mistaken
identity, there is, of course, frequent self-forgetting. Consciousness
splits into the problem and the problem solver, the problem-solver
victim. The field of consciousness is polarized into the opposites and
internalized and closed in upon its self-concern. There may be willful
plans to fix the problem at first. But soon enough, the habituated
separate self is evaluating and negotiating some private deal with the
problem and the least inconvenient way of dispensing with the problem,
which is, of course, a problem in itself. It is composed of problems,
and it feeds on problems in a self-cannibalizing, self-betraying way.
The separate self is overwhelmed by its problems in a world filled with
problems.
Consciousness is a problem because there is deep guilt. What is the
source of this guilt? Is it due to traditional religious conditioning
either directly internalized from family and institutionalized training
or from the collective culture at large? This is certainly the
understanding of guilt found in Psychologism and seen as one of the
sources of anxiety in the separate self. Psychologism’s only answer to
the problem of deep guilt is to promote the therapy myth of total
integration. Guilt is inherent in the anxiety of the separate self
non-entity.
The human being feels guilty for not being a Silent Individual Self,
open, alive and present in self-remembering within the One, the One
We-awareness within the One and Many. If Man was in some way incapable
of being authentic, then he would not experience profound guilt at his
“failure” to be authentically aware, awakened to himself in the One
Reality. But because it is natural for Man to be his Silent Individual
Awakened Self, he feels guilty over his Self-betrayal as a self in a
world of other Self-betraying separate selves, and experiences himself
as a tangled mass of problems. The separate self non-entity is grounded
in this self-betrayal and guilt which exist as an unavoidable condition
of the doubter, the “I-think” subject.
When man allows himself to be hypnotized by the everyday world of
collective, separate self non-entities, wherein his “failure” is
sanctioned, and to drift in the dissonant crosscurrents of sub-human
sub-awareness and distraction, he exists in a state of self-betrayal and
guilt. From this guilt and self-betrayal Man can find no relief, except
that he awakens to his true-Self nature within the mystery of the One
and Many.
Self-betrayal is self-rejection; thus, there is fear of betrayal and
rejection, the fear of death.
The separate self is totally incapable of any kind of actual spiritual
knowledge or awareness state. It fears spiritual reality because it
senses that spiritual reality means the death of itself and, in this
rare instance, it is right about something. To be sure, the separate
self can memorize psycho-spiritual data and repeat it, but it can never
comprehend what it is really saying. It can even memorize arguments
involving spiritual data, but it still can never understand what it is
actually arguing about.
So-called “education” and the mass media has prepared it well to
memorize and repeat information without ever having to think in a whole
way. The only kind of knowledge available to the “I-think” separate self
is scientism and technology which can be weighed, measured and numbered,
and this kind of knowledge it generates as if life depended upon it. Of
the Immeasurable and Nonmaterial and Sacred, it can know nothing.
The separate self, as the product of guilt and Self-betrayal in its
so-called “psycho-spiritual process”, is always involved in a betrayal
of the spiritual – it is incapable of anything else. It is hardly
surprising, then, that the spiritual seeker non-entity, for all its
apparent interest in spirituality, never comes to that fateful moment of
self-revelation.
In Self-betrayal and guilt, the spiritual seeker separate self pursues
its “psycho-spiritual process”, and always there are new problems to be
“worked on”, even as it continues to rationalize the new problems in
terms of its “biography”, psychologisms and distortions of its past. The
spiritual is made to serve as a ready source of pleasure-seeking and
problems, the solution to the problem itself and a source of new
pleasures.
There is growing disappointment, embitterment, and cynicism for the
separate self as the years go by, and its delusional expectations of the
great benefits due to it from its “spiritual efforts” fail to
materialize, because, obviously, as it has been “investing” in the
spiritual all along, it expects to get a payback.[4]
Throughout its never-ending psycho-spiritual process, the separate self
is vainly attempting to add “values” to itself in order to make up for
the Self-betrayal, fear and guilt of which it is the cause and product.
It is drawn by itself, as a Problem, to every kind of
“self-improvement”, “self-development” and “self-esteem-enhancing”,
“human-potential” psychologism, thereby admitting its condition to
itself without, of course, facing what this admission means. The
separate self, in its gullibility, must remain convinced that it can
improve and capitalize upon itself as a high value psycho-spiritual
product capable of total integration to the point of being rewarded with
its absurd and distorted notions of personal power and psycho-spiritual
perfection.
The separate self is a fragmented trajectory of consciousness down the
dead-end of post-Cartesian dualized “I-think” subjectivity and the
values-system therapy myth of total integration psychologism which it
has produced in the face of its predicament. In its will-to-power, guilt
and death-fear, and in its deep Self-betrayal, the separate self is
Nihilism.
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